Monday 5th April 2010
Great, bank holiday and Dave's home.
Must email Sharon and find out what's what, if I can suspend divorce until after June.
Tensions are high in my house. Living with Dave is really hard, but Jack likes it, bless him.
Emma's a bit happier today, she thinks me and her dad are trying so she's at least smiling today.
Tuesday 6th April 2010
I'm going into the estate agent’s today to cancel the lease on the house and believe me I really don't want to do it.
I sat outside the estate agent’s today for an hour hoping something would happen and I could just move out, but I have to think of Emma. I've got to get her through her exams, that's more important than me today.
Wednesday 7th April 2010
I didn't want to get out of bed, really low today. I keep thinking I would have moved out in six days time and I would be free from this terrible marriage. Life is really bad at this moment in time.
Dave's trying to be pleasant but it makes my skin crawl. Even writing this I'm crying my eyes out.
Emailed Solicitor to let her know what’s been going on, will talk to her Friday.
Thursday 8th April 2010
I'm bloody mad, I am. Do you know that diary - I'm bloody mad. I want to be free.
Today's just getting worse and worse. Emma hates me, Jack just wants me to play games, but I can't think straight and Dave, well what can I say.
Rollercoaster from hell.
Good Night!!
Friday 9th April 2010
Well bless her, Sharon rang me (ps that's my solicitor) she's great. As to form, it was calmly discussed and she understood what I was saying that due to Emma's exams and not coping we would hang fire with the divorce until July at the latest.
Sharon told me the ins and outs of how it works so at least I know now what I can do. Divorce is officially on hold!!
Saturday 10th April 2010
Well, what the Solicitor had said had finally sunk in.
I really don't want the divorce to be put on hold but Emma needs to do her exams, I can't mess her life up, it's too important.
Sharon was just fantastic except I'd wish she'd said I couldn't stop it but never mind.
Legally though I find it really hard to get my head around laws and rights but Sharon helps with that.
Sunday 11th April 2010
Now I really feel trapped. I really would have loved to move out but I can't because of Emma. She needs a calm stable environment right now, her exams are so important for her.
I’m still going over what my Solicitor said, I need to get things tidied up and make sure I'm ready for July.
Emma's revising today and seems to be copying better. Just think it's too much to deal with at once - divorce, parents separating, boys, and exams.
Well good night.
Posted: Tuesday June 1, 2010 at 12:57pm